Friday, January 31, 2014

important shit, fuck famine and social justice

I am seriously fucking out of cocktail forks at this point.

In some buried comment thread in a near dead post, I wrote that I am feeling overwhelmed and that I feel like I am not even fucking safe in my own space.

Aaaaaaaand....cue tumbleweeds.

TUMBLEWEEDS.

I am saying that this space--over which I have complete control--is making ME feel UNSAFE and UNVALUED. I am fucking sick to a thousand deaths of protecting everyone else and making this blog safe for everyone except ME.

I. feel. un. safe.

And the community into which I have poured and stabbed all of my cocktail forks day after fucking day is silent.

Where is the social justice for me?

I cannot keep exhausting myself and all of my resources, my husband's disposable income, and your income--disposable and indisposable--to make this space safe for you and get NOTHING in return.

Does anyone respond on that buried thread? No. Instead my inbox is fucking FLOODED--INUNDATED--with people sending me messages like "Are you okay?" and "We noticed you missing on the blog--is everything okay?" and "What's wrong? Can I send you flowers or bake you a cake?" and "We miss you" and "We love you, Judith, hope you're okay."

WELL FUCK ALL OF THAT. I tell you that I am feeling fucking overwhelmed and you flood me with self-centered messages about how I'M letting you down and asking me to DO. EVEN. MORE. for all of you.

I am seriously, for real this time, this close to being this close to shutting the whole fucking thing down and pretending it never happened.

So, here's a fucking OPEN THREAD, since all you seem to want to do is fucking talk to each and ignore me. ENJOY, selfish, anti-justice warriors.


11 comments:

  1. I am partially in!

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    1. Cocktail forks astern!

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  2. You could always buy yourself an item of clothing exactly like an actor on teevee wore, take a selfie in it, and tweet it to the world. Make sure you mention the actor's name! If you're really lucky, said actress will acknowledge your existence on the tweetiverse and you can brag about in on your blog to earn praise from your devoted admirers. It'll make you feel safe and valued and it'll be ALL ABOUT YOU.

    For an extra boost, call your item of clothing something only used in the UK. There's nothing like using confusing words to show how cosmopolitan you are and what an giant intellect you have!

    - Auntie Alias

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  3. OMG JUDITH I AM SO SORRY. I am literally going to the hospital on Monday morning to have a baby via c-section so I've kind of been trying to get ready for that but it's no excuse for ignoring you. Please let me know if there's anything I can do for you. Maybe find some Youtube videos for you to post or something while I recover from surgery?

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  4. HolofernesHadItComingFebruary 2, 2014 at 4:36 AM

    Janet, obvs you already know that you should cancel the surgery to be here for Judith. Immediately before birth is the very best time to start training your infant to practice patience while you hoist your cocktail fork and DEMAND MORE. If the baby complains, just give it a little gentle corrective fork-poke.

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  5. HellWithYou_HoneybearFebruary 3, 2014 at 9:25 PM

    I just want to break in here and say that I love what it is that you do to keep this a shaved face..

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  6. I have the same Wellingtons as the tall mustachioed chap on "Up Yours Minister!" THE SAME WELLINGTONS!

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  7. I used to wear the same hat and sunglasses as (content note: Britney Spears) Britney Spears used to. (content note: intent) I made it so cuz I (content note, affection) love Britney Spears.

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